Speaking From The Heart

When people choose to destroy themselves by choosing to do the wrong thing, it hurts those close to them. But they wont see, don't see or just don't care. They think its just about them and that they deserve the bad happening to them, so they seek it out. Everyone has a choice, it's unfortunate that some choose the path that leads to self-destruction. Maybe some humans are weaker than others but everyone has the strength in them if they really try. Why they wont try is whats mind boggling. Everyone deserves happiness and good until they do something that costs them their soul, so to speak. When they choose to loose the light in them, let go of it. Its just hard understand why someone would. I know I've had moments when the world seems cruel, heartless and cold but even then I never lost that. I never choose to do what I knew was wrong. I choose to comfort people instead of hurt them.
It is something some will never understand and a crack will forever be in those hearts knowing someone we deeply care about choose the path of destruction and has now lost themselves. I know we all have potential for evil, light and dark, we need both for balance. Some have a bit more of one than the other but its painful when someone close to you chooses to completely let the darkness engulf them.
These are my favorite quotes and why I personally find it hard to understand when people choose to let pain overcome them:

Sadness has overcome us all. Either caused by a relative or close friend's death or from the girl who broke our heart. We all handle situations differently, some good, some bad. But what makes us who we are is not defined by our times of happiness, but by our times of sadness.

"I can be changed by what happens to me. I refuse to be reduced by it."
Maya Angelou
"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give."
Winston Churchill

I don't know who said the first one but I agree. No ones perfect, we all make bad choices, that's how we truly learn. But there are the extremely wrong choices. The choices that makes our hearts bleed for the fact that these people we loved don't exist anymore. Its worse than mourning for a dead loved one as though they're gone you still have them in your heart. The memories of those good times together. But seeing them around, this shell that looks like the person who you'd given everything to help, everything for, seeing them destroying themselves, the good memories replaced by the things done now. This is much worse, they are not dead but their sense of self is. We mourn for the good they were and the good they did and the good they could have done, if they hadn't let the evil in them win. We mourn and our hearts bleed. We cry knowing that our tears can't wash away the things they've done. We cry because we tried but couldn't help them win the battle waged in them. And we hope that somehow, someday they will atone. Whether in this life or the next. That somehow they win back their soul. Knowing we will always care and for this fact their hurting themselves will always hurt. Their hurting others will always be painful to us. We will always have a crack in our hearts for these people that seem to have fallen into this bottomless pit. But we must live our lives and move on. Go on to have relationships and add friendships, to better ourselves and others' lives but we will always care and it will always hurt that they've destroyed themselves.