Emotions, Wants, Needs, Risks And What Ifs

I find it funny how we go through life just going with the motions and running or hiding from anything that would potentially cause us pain. And how when you least expect it, it smacks you in the face. How you build walls around you to not let anyone close enough, so they wont matter enough because when they get close enough that they matter is when they have the potential to hurt you, even when they don't mean to. Life is full of pain but the funny part is, that which could potentially cause you the greatest pain is that which gives you the greatest joy. We spend most of our lives behind a wall, burying them, numb. When the walls break its over-whelming. Could it be less over-whelming to someone who never closed off their feelings or themselves. Sometimes it feel as if we'll drown in them, so many pouring over us at once like a wave ten feet tall, falling on us. But the pain and the feeling of being completely over-whelmed is worth it for the small joys we find in life. The beauty of a flower or the serenity of the ocean when the sea is calm and the stars are out, the moon is shinning reflecting off the sea. The warmth a small touch can give. When you see a person you like and they look at you in a way that warms you up inside. When you think you cant feel and you find that one simple look from someone can send everything crumbling. Knowing that someone can get in enough to matter enough to be able to make you sad, or cry, or hurt, or happy is worth it. Because its a part of life, a part of happiness. To know most of the times you cry now is not because you're sad but because you can actually be happy. Because without emotions you're not really living.
Sometimes you meet someone who makes you feel so much you're completely baffled at what most of what they're making you feel is. And being completely frustrated but at the same time knowing you're blessed because before you could feel nothing. Also wondering if you should just leave it alone or try to figure it out. Would you like what you find or would it just be more frustrating?
Sometimes we wonder if we ever met the person who we think would be right for us, if they would think we were right for them too. When we search ourselves sometimes the answer will disappoint us as often times we still have things to work out before we could be what they need.

A good relationship is someone you can share your ups, your downs, and your dreams with and someone you can share in the building of those dreams with.
Sometimes you need to take a risk and go for something you really want even if you're scared. It's better than forever being plagued with the what ifs. But what do you do when its not an irrational fear stopping you. What if the consequence could be as big or bigger than forever having that what if floating above your head, tormenting you? Like if you meet someone who makes you feel so good and you wonder how would it feel like to kiss them, to hold them? What would you feel when a simple touch makes you feel so much? Would you feel anything from a simple kiss when you never have before? Should you live with the what if or should you risk it?
Some wont let themselves risk it and will never know what could have been.