Love

Love requires a certain amount of acceptance and an immense amount of vulnerability. Accept that their happiness is equal to your own but should not come before yours. Accept that the emotion will strip you until you are raw, naked and vulnerable. Your heart in their hands. They have the ability to hurt you as no other can as well as provide you with more joy than anyone else. They can hurt you, break you but although you give them the ability for this, it also requires trust. Trust that they will not use this ability, will not shatter you. Love is the most important thing you can come to do, if you let yourself.

I Love You

Love. This emotion we strive for, we long for above all others. To find someone who will love us unconditionally. Someone who will tell us those three little words.
I love you.

I love you? Do these words have any meaning left behind them any longer? Do we even know the definition of the word? It seems to me saying those three little words have become so common they lost all meaning. It used to be we did not say those words until someone mattered more than words could explain. We meet a person, befriend them or date them and after a few weeks, I love you seems to be common to say. It seems that most expect to hear it now and how do you deal with the awkwardness of this when you do not feel it also, their hurt if you do not say it back. Even though you understand it is most likely they do not feel it, it has just become the norm. But why should you feel awkward for wanting to reserve those words for someone who has touched you beyond words? I love you used to be the expression of affection too deep for words, too vast for definition. It seems that we have made it less than nothing. While you do care about someone you love, just because you care does not mean you love. Loving someone is wanting the best for them whether it includes you or not. It is unselfish. It is beautiful. It is painful. It is bittersweet. But it is not something we should throw around like, hellos. Let's bring back the meaning of, I love you.

War

Sometimes it is utterly mind boggling how human beings process information and come to certain conclusions. We get outraged when we think of past tragedies that have lost countless lives. We shake our heads and wonder what people were thinking when they allowed lives to be lost in completely moronic tirades such as the witch hunts or the utterly devastating tragedy of Jewish lives taken for no good reason. We waited too long to put a stop to these injustices, even one life lost would have been one too many. Yet we go to war, let the lives of our nations people, soldiers to be lost. We allow the bombing of other countries where not only soldiers lives which is bad all in itself but civilian lives, lives of people who did not choose to involve themselves in the war to be lost. These people who are someones mother or father, sister or brother, aunt or uncle, niece or nephew, grandmother or grandfather, cousin. Someones wife or husband, someones heart and soul to be lost, to be taken away forever and for what? What are we fighting for? Obviously the original reason about weapons of mass destruction was not true. Freedom from terrorism you say? How about we focus on making our nation safe in the possibility we have another terrorist threat as opposed to going on a killing spree where we take out the closest thing we can find. How about we focus on ourselves instead of in-debting out nation and its people for billions of dollars in which it does not have. How about we get our heads out of our asses, stop thinking we're so superior nothing can touch us and it will all magically fix itself and actually come up with a plan before we dig a pit so deep it's bottomless. Yet we stay in a war of our own making that drains us of our resources and costs us countless lives. I in all honesty ask what we are fighting for. What is this, an eye for an eye? But as we can't get quite close enough to the eye we make do with what we can get, perhaps a leg? One which most likely had nothing to do with the initial incident. Does this really make us any better than them? Instead of strengthning ourselves to make sure we are never again vulnerable enough so that lives are lost because of others unfortunate hate for this nation, we leave ourselves even more vulnerable while playing god with others lives.

Jaded

Life is never too long. Death is always unexpected. Yet a child which has their whole life ahead of them to have it cut short is the most tragical of deaths. Especially when that life is cut short maliciously by another "human" being if we can even call them that. Here we call ourselves the most advanced species, the most evolved yet we kill each other. We kill each other for no better reason than to kill. How can we call ourselves evolved when we have yet to get past vicious, barbaric violence? Most shutter thinking of people like Manson or Hitler, who killed dozens or millions for no reason other than their stupidity of thinking themselves superior. Yet we can't seem to muster up the same outrage when a person only kills one. When a serial killer is on the loose we seem to find a way to be outraged but one life taken doesn't seem to make most even bat an eyelash. Is every life not precious? Have we become so jaded by the fact murder occurs every day throughout the world that the only thing that permeates is if it's somehow 'big' or less than the norm? Just because it is the norm does not mean it is not wrong. When will we move past these human tendencies towards violence and become a truly more evolved race? Tragedy is unavoidable in life but that does not mean we should not feel for a life cut to short whether by disease, accident or murder. How is it that some can feel for every life lost, hurt as it were one of their own while others wave it away as just another incident?

Consciousness

What exactly is consciousness? When does it start? What triggers it? Are we conscious from the moment our brain finishes developing in the womb, prior to this or long after? Why is it that we can only see through our eyes and no one else's? If how we interpret different situations and our ability to view these situations as well as interpret them lies within the brain and its various systems of 'highways', of currents running through our brain to other places of our bodies telling us what to do, how to do it, how we feel and various other things. Does that mean the answer to what our consciousness is, lies within the brain?
Now, if consciousness starts in the womb, why is it that no one can recollect this event? Neither can many recollect anything before the age of 3-5, depending on the individual. Could it be that our consciousness is still in development and therefore cannot recollect what happened before our conscious self reached a certain level? Or is it that our brains are not expanded enough? Could it be that we do not use every percentage of our brain or that the activity levels are not working at full capacity? That if we were to unlock a certain section of our brain or make it work at a higher level, we would find it holds suppressed memories of our younger years?
What is it that makes us different from an AI? Is it our ability to feel? If so are our feelings just another current running through our circuitry dictated by our brain or is it something more? The soul. An aspect that billions believe in the existence of but we have yet to prove. Of course, just because it is not yet proven doesn't mean it should be viewed as fictional. Many great mysteries have yet to be discovered. Before the atom was split scientist thought it was the smallest.
Thought. Would the thought process give us a glimpse into how our conscious self works. AIs think of the problem we present them with and answer it with the knowledge we programme into them. I have yet to hear of an AI who has a thought process that is not initialized by a human. Lets say a robot like one of those robo-pets existed that was designed to look and act human. They would obviously not eat, the years of their lives would not be measurable, a virus to them and us would mean two very different things. They would not start off as we did from an egg and sperm uniting into self replicating cells carrying our genetic code. They would always be as they were made. There would be no learning by trial and error, no childhood, no real adulthood as defined by human standards. Their circuits would let them process a variety of information and proceed as necessary depending on their set parameters. As do we, except that their action would only deal with the rational and would not be clouded by emotions reactions that plague us when dealing with different circumstances. How we were raised and what we have been taught most times preset us to how we deal with a situation, how we think about it or if we think about it at all. If you get down to technicality, an AI would seem to be doing the same thing depending on what their maker programmes into them. Giving this definition it would mean an AI would have a type of consciousness yet this is untrue as they show no reaction based on self, therefore meaning the definition of consciousness is something else entirely. But what that definition is, is a question I wonder if it will ever be fully answered.
We can see through our eyes and no one elses', experience only through the body we were born into. Individual thought and experiences as opposed to a collective mindset that would allow us to see the lives of others in first person. Again we come back to the brain and our brain cannot branch out into another body and send signals allowing us to see and experience through their eyes. Our brains connect to the nerves in our bodies sending messages back and forth allowing us to see and experience only through our eyes as it is connected only to our bodies. Could this mean that if Siamese twins existed that were connected at the brain that they could see and experience through both sets of eyes. If so would they be able to control this at will, only experience it through one or experience it through both at the same time? Would they be able to pick which to experience it through? If not, why could they not? Could they be stuck experiencing things through both sets of eyes for the rests of their lives or through a particular one designated by something else? Is it something else entirely that sets our consciousness into motion or can our brain differentiate?

Loneliness

Loneliness is an emotion. Sometimes we feel this particular emotion if we lack social contact in our lives yet other times no matter how many friends we have or how many social gatherings we attend, we still feel it. No one knows what triggers an emotional feeling, often times these emotions have no rational explanation to them. Physical pain comes from which ever part of our body that was injured sending a signal to the brain that it receives, processes and proceeds to send another series of signals back to where that injury occurred telling it that it hurts. If emotional pain where like this then what exactly sends a signal to the brain that it is "injured" and what does it send its signal back to? Now, various circumstances can make us feel the emotional pain we call loneliness. One can be the lack of social relationships, something that could be easily remedied if a person where to stop alienating themselves from the world and make these needed social relationships. The question then becomes what makes some people choose to inflict this emotion upon themselves as opposed to going out into the world and trying to make these needed relationships. Could it be a part of the brain malfunctioning or functioning differently? Then there is in my opinion the more difficult of the two. The times when you do not lack these essential social relationships yet still feel this emotion. This could be due to the fact that even though there are many people around you which you frequently socialize with none of them get through the walls we erect around us as a defense mechanism against emotional pain, only to cause a completely different but just as painful emotional hurt. So then it would be a matter of which pain would be easier to live with for the individual. Then maybe it's a lack of companionship as opposed to social relationships.

Denial

Denial Is not only a river in Egypt. Okay, enough with the lame joke. On the serious note how can human beings, smart ones at that be so blind to the truth. Lets take the Casey Anthony case as an example. The first thing the grandmother said when she called the police was that when she found her daughters car it smelled like a decomposing body had been in it. Both her and her husband have worked in fields where they have possibly come across that smell before. Yet, they allow their daughter to feed them lies and not only that but believe those lies. You have to be kidding me. How dense do you have to be? The evidence all points to one thing and I'm all for being optimistic and hoping for the best but not when things are so obvious. I understand that is their daughter, they raised her, provided for her and love her but enough is enough. They enabled her lazy, petty, psychotic tendencies long enough. There is a time when you have to cut loose and let your child take responsibilities for her own actions. Maybe if they had stopped enabling her, stopped fixing things for her things would have been different. Then again maybe not. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you love a person, how much you're there for them, how much you do for them, Sometimes even when you do all the right things, raise them properly, teach them right from wrong it changes nothing. There is something wrong in them whether their mind or their soul or both that no matter what, they end up not being a good person. And it's understandable that it would be painful finding out your child is this way but that does not mean it was the parents fault and guilt although hard to not feel is misplaced. This is about a little girl who did nothing more than be born into this world and to the wrong mother. It's understandable wanting to be there for your child but how about getting justice for a little girl who's life was cut tragically short. It's painful to believe true but get over it and give Caylee what she deserves.

For Women

I say this from experience and I'm sure most of you will roll your eyes or think its not me, it wont happen to me, its different with me. Do not settle for less than you want, less than you need, less than you deserve. I understand the need to be there for someone you love, the need to help. I understand the thought that if you just love them enough, show them that they'll change. I understand the thought that they just need a little more time, and they'll change. First of all, a person will never change unless they want to. Love will not change them, just because you are a good woman and are there for them does not mean this will make them want to better themselves. They will only do this if it comes from deep within, if they are tired of being what they are and want to be better. This does not mean you were not enough to change them, it means it has to come from them. It has nothing to do with you. If you have problems when you are dating, if things annoy you to no end, things will not get better if..
A. You do whatever they want.
B. You change yourself to what they need.
C. You get engaged.
D. You get married.
E. You have children together.
F. You move in together.
All these things listed will only make it worse. The problems will get bigger. What annoyed you before will multiply by ten because they are always there and you will not get a break from it.
Now I understand the believe that love sticks thick and thin, good and bad, hard and easy. Which I myself agree. And though love is never easy and takes hard work. Love does not willingly hurt. Love sticks through those tough times but it also has to know when to let go. Don't confuse the for better or for worse to mean you must be miserable. Please think rationally before you move a relationship to the next level. Do I want to put up with this for the rest of my life. Resentment can chip away at things, don't let yourself be stuck in something you'll grow to resent.

The Confusion Of Relationships

The only keeping us from what we want, from what we need is our own fears, fear of hurting but does it really matter when you're already hurting, I doubt I can hurt any more. Fear of failure but failure brings lessons and if you never try how will you know if you would've failed or not. Sometimes chances have to be taken because you never know when something will be right. You can't tell the future and you can't know without trying.
I don't quite understand why we always do this. We fall for the wrong person. Whether its the one who is bad for you because they treat you wrong. Or the one who's nice, great but doesn't really see you. And you wonder if you like each other enough that you can spend time together without getting bored, talk without running out of subjects, and are even slightly attracted to each other. What is missing that they can only see you as a friend?
No one is perfect, no one will ever be perfect. Who wants to be perfect? What comes after perfect? Nothing you're done. There's nothing more to go for and nothing left to achieve. All we can do is be a good person, try to be there for friends, and use our brains. We all have issues but who doesn't, it's a fact of life.
Sometimes it seems life is easier when you're closed off to emotions. Knowing you could never fall and your heart wouldn't hurt. But sometimes there's really nothing you can do but accept that nothing more but friendship will come from the relationship. And even if it hurts and breaks your heart to never know what could have come from it, if you care enough about the person you'll take the bit you can get and wish them happiness, hope they find someone that makes them feel like they make you feel and always be there for them. And though at times the tears may come, don't let them see, just hold them back, put on a smile. You don't even have to fake a smile because its enough knowing they're happy even if its not with you.
Life is ironic, you hold yourself back for years to end up falling for that which you can't have. The irony of life makes me smile. Its beautifully bittersweet. You find someone who makes you smile without having to fake it while you're crying inside. And the funny thing is they'll never know and if they did it wouldn't change anything so it's better they don't.
There are those times you want to pour your heart out and ask for them to take a chance on you. But knowing it's better that you don't, you never will and you'll forever wonder what could have been.

Unrequited Emotions

If we unrestricted ourselves and did what we felt, how would things be? Change for us? Why do we think that if we let our wants and needs, emotions, feelings loose we'd make the wrong choice? What if the right choice would come from doing what our heart wanted instead of doing the rational, logical thing all the time?
Why is it wrong to want to experience something you never have before even if it eventually means it wont stay forever. Why do we often suppress what we want? Who says it would be wrong if you don't even try? All our lives we've suppressed what we've wanted and it does us no good. Sometimes life is difficult to understand.
Sometimes random sets of circumstances lets you find someone who makes you smile, makes you laugh, makes you mad, makes you feel, cry and hurt, makes you warm inside and think and forget. Someone you enjoy spending time with and can talk about anything with. And ironically at the same time you can't let yourself go, let your emotions fly and see what happens. Fear cripples the heart but sometimes its not just the fear. Sometimes you can't quite tell them how you feel as it would be impossible to put into words. Or that person doesn't see you or doesn't see you in quite the same way you see them.
Can we really fall for a person when they can't or wont fall for you? A person unwilling to catch you if you do? Should we? Holding on to hope, hope that we've never allowed ourselves before because we've learned the hard way that hope can disappoint us. Finding something that you've always wanted to find though never admitted it to yourself until you found it and not being able to have it, have a go at it. And knowing that if you were just given a chance even if it didn't work out it'd mean so much.
Feelings are just to much work sometime. Specially when you spend so much time trying to suppress them.

Feelings

Feelings are a part of life. Happiness, sadness, fear and an endless list of others that would take most of the page to list. When we feel we live. We're alive. We want. We need. It shows us we're here and how to tell reality from everything else. Sadness should be embraced as opposed to coward from because we're at least feeling something. Life is full of disappointments and the small things that bring you a little bit of happiness. We chase happiness but we don't learn from happiness, we learn from it all. We mainly learn from the hard times, that's how we learn to appreciate the good times. And the tears wash away the hurt, the pain until it clears away the fog so you can see the small things that are worth all the pain. Sometimes it seems life is made of disappointments and life never gives you what you want. Maybe we should stop focusing on all the bad we get, on the things we want and can never go for and appreciate we have. I know most of my blogs are filled with optimism, one of those just wait it'll happen, eventually it'll be your turn and I know sometimes optimism gets kind of tiring. Specially when it seems you have nothing to be optimistic about. But there is always someone who has it worse. Pity parties do no good. We have a jobs that pays the bills even though sometimes we find it sucks, a place to live, money, food, clothes, necessity and some wants. Most have good friends. Sometimes you think is that all but that's more than most have.

Courage

What is it with us that even when the threat of failure is taken out of the equation we still can't sum up enough courage to go for something we really want? What is courage anyway? The absence of fear or knowing you're afraid and still doing it? How do we get up the courage to go for something we want when everything else tells you, you shouldn't? Should you listen to everything else or yourself? Or should you take both factors into account? And how do we know if we're nervous or if is just adrenaline rush or how this things makes you feel? There are so many feelings we don't have names for and so many that feel so alike yet are completely different things. How do we know which one it is we are feeling? Maybe its time we stopped hoping for someone else to take the responsibility off our shoulders. Wishing on an imaginary thing that has no consciousness let alone power to give us what we want. And know that the only person that can make what you want happen is, you. That if you want something that bad you should screw the consequences and do it.

Philosophers, Art, Knowledge

Has the fact that we have let ourselves, our cultures advance scientifically ruined our philosophical future? We've industrialized our lives, our brains to the point that we cannot open our minds to ponder great philosophical questions. Or is it that all the great philosophical questions have already been asked? The greatest philosophers have long been gone from this world, Plato, Socrates, Aristotle. We that are so much more advanced than the time that bore them, why is it that we cannot also bore a great philosopher? Could we really name a person from our time, our generation, our century that could be held up to their standards? That could be named with the great philosophers of all time? And knowing this, are we really more advanced than the civilizations of our ancestors. Civilizations that created great works of arts, architectures and philosophies while ours is concerned with the latest celebrity train wreck or fashion idea? It shames me that we think ourselves better, more advanced than these people that came before us when we've let our brains rot. We follow what we're told while they stood out and boldly asked and wondered and searched. Scientifically, we are more advanced, we have cures for things they couldn't even imagine but somewhere, somehow we lost our thirst for knowledge, our brains became a novelty and ideas became about what could sell the most. Look at the great pyramids of Egypt, the ruins of ancient Rome and Greece. Can any of our structures even be put in the same sentence as those? Will ours stand the test of time and will our future generations in a thousand years from now look at what we've made and be inspired, be proud, be amazed as we are by these?

Emotions, Wants, Needs, Risks And What Ifs

I find it funny how we go through life just going with the motions and running or hiding from anything that would potentially cause us pain. And how when you least expect it, it smacks you in the face. How you build walls around you to not let anyone close enough, so they wont matter enough because when they get close enough that they matter is when they have the potential to hurt you, even when they don't mean to. Life is full of pain but the funny part is, that which could potentially cause you the greatest pain is that which gives you the greatest joy. We spend most of our lives behind a wall, burying them, numb. When the walls break its over-whelming. Could it be less over-whelming to someone who never closed off their feelings or themselves. Sometimes it feel as if we'll drown in them, so many pouring over us at once like a wave ten feet tall, falling on us. But the pain and the feeling of being completely over-whelmed is worth it for the small joys we find in life. The beauty of a flower or the serenity of the ocean when the sea is calm and the stars are out, the moon is shinning reflecting off the sea. The warmth a small touch can give. When you see a person you like and they look at you in a way that warms you up inside. When you think you cant feel and you find that one simple look from someone can send everything crumbling. Knowing that someone can get in enough to matter enough to be able to make you sad, or cry, or hurt, or happy is worth it. Because its a part of life, a part of happiness. To know most of the times you cry now is not because you're sad but because you can actually be happy. Because without emotions you're not really living.
Sometimes you meet someone who makes you feel so much you're completely baffled at what most of what they're making you feel is. And being completely frustrated but at the same time knowing you're blessed because before you could feel nothing. Also wondering if you should just leave it alone or try to figure it out. Would you like what you find or would it just be more frustrating?
Sometimes we wonder if we ever met the person who we think would be right for us, if they would think we were right for them too. When we search ourselves sometimes the answer will disappoint us as often times we still have things to work out before we could be what they need.

A good relationship is someone you can share your ups, your downs, and your dreams with and someone you can share in the building of those dreams with.
Sometimes you need to take a risk and go for something you really want even if you're scared. It's better than forever being plagued with the what ifs. But what do you do when its not an irrational fear stopping you. What if the consequence could be as big or bigger than forever having that what if floating above your head, tormenting you? Like if you meet someone who makes you feel so good and you wonder how would it feel like to kiss them, to hold them? What would you feel when a simple touch makes you feel so much? Would you feel anything from a simple kiss when you never have before? Should you live with the what if or should you risk it?
Some wont let themselves risk it and will never know what could have been.

Speaking From The Heart

When people choose to destroy themselves by choosing to do the wrong thing, it hurts those close to them. But they wont see, don't see or just don't care. They think its just about them and that they deserve the bad happening to them, so they seek it out. Everyone has a choice, it's unfortunate that some choose the path that leads to self-destruction. Maybe some humans are weaker than others but everyone has the strength in them if they really try. Why they wont try is whats mind boggling. Everyone deserves happiness and good until they do something that costs them their soul, so to speak. When they choose to loose the light in them, let go of it. Its just hard understand why someone would. I know I've had moments when the world seems cruel, heartless and cold but even then I never lost that. I never choose to do what I knew was wrong. I choose to comfort people instead of hurt them.
It is something some will never understand and a crack will forever be in those hearts knowing someone we deeply care about choose the path of destruction and has now lost themselves. I know we all have potential for evil, light and dark, we need both for balance. Some have a bit more of one than the other but its painful when someone close to you chooses to completely let the darkness engulf them.
These are my favorite quotes and why I personally find it hard to understand when people choose to let pain overcome them:

Sadness has overcome us all. Either caused by a relative or close friend's death or from the girl who broke our heart. We all handle situations differently, some good, some bad. But what makes us who we are is not defined by our times of happiness, but by our times of sadness.

"I can be changed by what happens to me. I refuse to be reduced by it."
Maya Angelou
"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give."
Winston Churchill

I don't know who said the first one but I agree. No ones perfect, we all make bad choices, that's how we truly learn. But there are the extremely wrong choices. The choices that makes our hearts bleed for the fact that these people we loved don't exist anymore. Its worse than mourning for a dead loved one as though they're gone you still have them in your heart. The memories of those good times together. But seeing them around, this shell that looks like the person who you'd given everything to help, everything for, seeing them destroying themselves, the good memories replaced by the things done now. This is much worse, they are not dead but their sense of self is. We mourn for the good they were and the good they did and the good they could have done, if they hadn't let the evil in them win. We mourn and our hearts bleed. We cry knowing that our tears can't wash away the things they've done. We cry because we tried but couldn't help them win the battle waged in them. And we hope that somehow, someday they will atone. Whether in this life or the next. That somehow they win back their soul. Knowing we will always care and for this fact their hurting themselves will always hurt. Their hurting others will always be painful to us. We will always have a crack in our hearts for these people that seem to have fallen into this bottomless pit. But we must live our lives and move on. Go on to have relationships and add friendships, to better ourselves and others' lives but we will always care and it will always hurt that they've destroyed themselves.

Difficulties

What is with us? It seems never want the easy. Always the difficult. Maybe if we did the easy once in a while we wouldn't be so frustrated all the time. Okay, that's not true. The easy is okay for a small amount of time but always ends up being the wrong thing. Its because when you have to work for it, and work hard you know it's worth it. The easy is never worth it. The harder it is the more its worth. But damn if wouldn't be nice for the easy to be worth it. The difficult is intriguing, its exciting. The frustration adds to the adrenaline rush. So, although I might complain at times. I know though difficult it's worth it.

My Pearls Of Wisdom(Yes, I occasionally get them)

You never know the surprises life brings in the most unexpected packages. Sometimes the right thing is right under your nose.

One must try new things in order to achieve because if you don't you never know what could have been. When a door closes a window opens but its up to you to see it for the possibility it is and go through it.

Most of the time what we want is not what we need and what we need is not what we want. But what we get is what we should have. One must not be picky because sometimes what we think is a rock is really a diamond. It just needs a good polish now and then and a good eye to see it for what it truly is. A good heart to understand , we shouldn't judge a book by its cover. Sometimes the ones that seem like the opposite of what you want can surprise you if you really take the time to read between the lines.

Love is sometimes like an ocean. Its depth is unknown. What lurks beneath is a mystery. Its vastness is indescribable. It can be a source of great pleasure and great pain. Great beauty and great tragedies. It will never be tamed. Never be conquered. Never be controlled. One can only go with the motions and hope for the best but that doesn't mean we should stop from preparing for the storm.

Blessing or Curse

Sometimes you get so detached from life. You loose who you are. You go on numb as a machine, feeling nothing at all. Then someone comes along and breaks down those walls that you so carefully built. And you don't know what to do, its all cascading on you. Years of pent up feelings. Rushing through like a river, the current so strong. You're drowning in past and present emotions. Confused whether this is good or bad. Having to learn how to deal all over again. Is this a blessing or a curse?

Why

Why do we always want the unattainable? We know its more likely for us to win the lottery than for that certain thing we want to happen. But we still can't stop ourselves from wanting it. Deep down we know only in our wildest dreams would this happen and in reality its a near impossibility. Still we can't help but hope. So how could we suppress our wants? Should we? Why do we cling to the hopeless? The hurtful? Things we are better without? Sometimes hope is necessary for our survival. It helps us strive and though most often than not we fall, we're better for it.

Life

We need to understand that we have live my life with no regrets, to do what we want not what others think we should. We need to think of ourselves first and last and have no one come before us. Love ourselves for who we are and not get down on ourselves. To remind ourselves more often that we are beautiful and to look good for ourselves and no one else. We should not always rush into things, sometimes thinking things through is best. We should do our best to accomplish the goals we have set for ourselves and remember that we are good enough to have the things we want in life. Everyone has been hurt in the past we should stop harboring hate as we only hurt our self when we do this and let go, let ourselves heal. Life shouldn't be all work, we need to have a balanced life and that means allowing for fun, treat ourselves more often. Sometimes the pain gets too much to bear but we should not close ourselves or we'll miss out on great things life has to offer. We need to let ourselves feel, even if it means I'll get pain sometimes. Though at times it is easier to go through life with a mask, sometimes you need to show the real you. How will you get what you want if who you pretend to be is the opposite. Its more tiring living life always having to be someone else than to let the real you be free.
We should never settle, wait for someone who's worth what we have to give. People disappoint you. You try to think the best of them, be there for them. But in the end most don’t factor anyone Else's feelings but their screwed up ones. I guess its something you have to deal with but that does not mean it is your fault and that definitely does not mean you should put up with it.

Laws

Our laws are made for a reason. For the protection of all that live in this nation. What happens when those we entrust to uphold those laws decide this time they’ll wait a little time before they start doing their job. I’ll tell you what happens. A little girl is sexually assaulted and murdered. A seven yr old looses her innocence and her life. A mother and father loose their daughter. A baby looses its big sister, it’ll never get to know. When a child, specially a really young one, is reported missing, its presumed they have been kidnapped. You don’t sit on your ass and wait till morning to do what you’re paid for. You immediately put out an amber alert. You immediately go out and search. A block and a half away this little girl was found. A life not only lost to a soul less sorry excuse for a human being but due to incompetence. Every minute counts. RIP. I hope she did not suffer too much and may she be in gods hands. And prayers out to the family.

What Do We Really Look For In A Person & A Relationship

Initial attraction is great. The tingles sent through your body with a simple touch, the rapid beat of your heart one look can warrant. But after the initial heat of attraction or feelings or a crush, what do you have? Why do we settle for a heat that will eventually flicker and die? For looks instead of whats inside. We're all guilty of it. We have this list of wants and we settle for someone with none of it or maybe just one or two. Mainly the shallow things. We strive for the unattainable and settle for the easy. Why don't we try for something in between. Why don't we forgo the shallow and go for depth. Is that why so many relationships end? Why there is so much divorce? We get caught up in the heat and ignore our brain or heart. When we're single we know what we want but as soon as someone shows their attraction for us it goes out the door. Either we settle for fear of loneliness or we shut them down because they don't look exactly like we wanted even though they have most of what you want. want a person that stimulates my mind as well as my body. Someone that i can be me around, the good, the bad, the silly, the serious, all aspects of me, not just some. Someone i can have in depth conversations with where i can say what i really think and not leave things out for fear of what they'll think. A person i can disagree with and not tip toe around for fear of what will happen when we argue. A person that thinks for themselves. A person who fully beliefs in what they believe because they've thoroughly thought it out instead of following the herd. A person who's open minded but doesn't back down from their beliefs because of what you might think. A person who's smart, caring, who makes me laugh. A person who makes my skin flush, makes my stomach flutter, makes my brain muddled at the same time they make it think and search. Someone who's passionate about certain things they like. Someone who's down to earth. Someone I'm comfortable around. So why do we settle? Why should we?

Fear & The What Ifs In Life

Why is it so ingrained in us to be afraid to give things a try? To go for the things we really want in life. The fear consumes our lives so much we settle, instead going for what is harder but so much more worth it. We fear rejection or failure so we give up or just don't try at all. Then we're forever riddled with those nagging thoughts. The what if i had gone through with it? Would i be happier? Would i have been good at it. Would the person have seen it my way? Would feelings be returned? Why are we so afraid of that we automatically assume the negative will happen. The worse that can happen is you fail but you can dust yourself off, work harder & try it again. Or that you get rejected but life doesn't end & it will take away the what ifs you'll forever live with if you don't. I rather try & fail than have those what ifs linger in my mind forever. Things wont always go your way but sometimes they will. Wouldn't you want to know if this is one of those times that will? In the end all we have to fear is fear.
Life is full of never ending changes. You would think one would be used to this. But we dig our heels in the ground trying not to budge. Whats is it about change that we fear? Is it the uncertainty? We are so used to things being a certain way, even though the change might be better we’re opposed. Not really knowing whats coming. Sometimes change is just what we need. If we don’t try it who knows what great things we’ll miss. Most of us live our lives in a bubble. Too scared to leave our comfort zone. We miss so much of life. We need to stop letting fear rule us and pop that bubble. Live life to the fullest. You can’t redo this life. Don’t let yourself have regrets. Change is extremely hard but worth it in the end. But don’t change for anyone. Do it for yourself.

The Media & Females

Why is society obsessed with weight? Why do we keep letting the media send the next generations women the message that happiness is skinniness. That how they look is not beautiful unless they're unhealthily thin. That they wont be successful and men wont want them unless they change who they are. That they need to starve themselves, get dangerous surgeries, and whore themselves out to be loved. Our ancestral females fought too hard and long to give us all the freedoms we have now for us to through it away degrading ourselves, letting others degrade us. We are all beautiful no matter what we look like and what really matters is inside. Looks are fleeting your personality is forever. If you're rotten inside no one will stand you for long. So why do we let the media teach women that they need to be perfect look wise. That its okay to act dumb to get a man as long as you throw up enough to loose enough weight that you make yourself sick. The ends justify the means after all. We have changed so much for ourselves Why don't we change this? Show the younger generation we are worth more. The only reason this is still a mans world is because we wont stand up and fight anymore. We don't unite like we used to. We let the few bring down the whole. If we didn't buy it, pay attention to it they'd have no cause to plaster it everywhere. They only plaster what sells. If it doesn't make money they quickly change it to something that will. Can't we bring fourth a generation of leaders instead of followers. We are all beautiful no matter you're weight, height, color, hair, eyes, nose. I'm not saying one should be unhealthily obese. Just that no matter what we look like we're all beautiful. Lets get to our healthy weight and stop listening to the media. Wear what you like not whats in. Don't change yourself for anyone but yourself. Love who you are. Screw the media.